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*edit again*
yeah well by luck i can spend the weekend in here coz its postponed. but "Cold Impetus" will be the last one i made until i get back. I want to focus to other thing that I missed for a while now I have the chance.

I made it! strike few on to-do-list. lol. I dont want y'all think I'm running away from those lol XDD

Ok see y'all later~


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*edit* non Emo on this one

so there's a sudden change o plans. They're going to empty this house where i live, for a week, for various SUDDEN change, i just informed today, WOW. well so that means...

ill be off from the net, or rather will not on that often. *sigh* yeah well around a week. but what's annoying is.. why on weekends? why not on next monday? dammit. in the same case id be returning to my actual home again.. ugh which i dont really like. got no choice tho.

so yeah another 'brb' this time. Ill go hunt for net-cafes to keep my presence alive here lol.
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-Emo blurt for a sec-

Y'know... if see my my artworks, can you feel the emotions? through out some stiffness from my limited skill still made? or it just seems as a 'technically right' pics for you?

Ok i might be a lil bit too soft and wimpy as a guy on this one. but man, why everyone around me said to me i never did anything with heart?

I've started to take drawing seriously since i was 7 but everytime I show mah family or my mother seen it they'll said like : "you need to put your heart, art is not a matter of will and scratch"

I've putted every effort piously for the band im working and still someone said "you need to put more heart, all you do is all play and no work" HELLO?

even when i ride my bike "you need to feel your bike your heart, its part of your body" OH COME ON.

when i hear music, sometimes im lazy to move/dance coz im daydreaming and still, it worth amazing concepts and stories but someone would say "you didnt hear music with your heart" PLEASE?

YEAH thats why i pull it off and locked it off somewhere close to my death. Sally that is. It wont do any good since no one noticed it was ever there anyway.

so well. you all people I know here and happens to read this, do you feel that i didn't put enough 'heart' or effort into my arts? Kinda lost. be honest.

i need to rant this out coz all of em somehow recently happens to me in one occasion at ONCE. they're like my family and close friends. wow. am i truly sucks? coz seriously i cant take this kind of sarcasm if they want me to improve. unless its really true.

yeah maybe this thing that suddenly caused me an Artblock. Its not an excuse, it truly put me to bad mood unless i do anything else that they never said i didn't put any 'heart' on it.


_{Im quite confident that few people i know here would say otherwise, but maybe Im wrong, so correct me}

coz i hate doing things emotionless and stoic like a robot. Im human, Im organic, somekind of chemical reactions and sensations through nerves must happen rather than just impulses of responsibility. or i thought so, maybe i am?